One thing I realize is God had to put me in a place of true trust in Him and increase my faith to stand on and believe His word. He had to force me in a position to where there is nothing much more I can do than what I already have done and I have to keep putting my faith into action and believing in Him and Him alone; not others and not myself.
I feel like I am in a place where I am practically starting over. I realize I have to go through this process so I can step into the new and fresh season that’s coming. I was trying to hold on to my independence too much and sticking to what was comfortable. This has to be a season of dependency on the Lord and stepping out of my comfortable “boat” (like Peter), because all that I am faced with right now is preparing me for what is ahead.
The key things I know is needed for this season is: 1. Building a stronger relationship with my mom while caring for and supporting her fully as she goes through this battle journey for her health, 2. To fully trust God in every area of my life (including my finances), and 3. To reprioritize my life, while getting in a better position in my personal life and with my ministries.
This process is now beginning to encourage me, rather than discourage me. I have shed my tears, but now I am ready for what is ahead. I know that this is so much bigger than me. It gives me a chance to be with my mom, it is allowing me to save and get back on my feet, it’s allowing me to grow as I get ready to step up and out in the things ahead, forming my character, my faith, my leadership and it is daily building my testimony to share with others one day. At the end of it all, it is all going to give God the glory because He will be the main source on why everything turned around when that day comes.
“Less is more because, sometime we have to decrease for Jesus to continue to increase and for us to fully walk into the greatness and favor we have in our life. Our time is coming for breakthrough, abundance and overflow will come pouring into our life, keep the faith and never give up”!